Grounded Feet

The reason I started this blog, (and for some crazy, unknown reason, got over my intense need for privacy), was to document my journey of quitting my job, self-exploration and developing a career around something I feel passionate about -- at least really like.  I also wanted to share my story with anyone who might be thinking of quitting their job.  In some small way, I thought my daily musings might help someone quit, or make the decision to stay right where they are, realizing that they are exactly where they need to be.  So, instead if sharing only the fun stuff about not working, I promised myself I would share the scary stuff, too.    

It seems as if the two month mark after quitting my job has sparked a bit of little uneasiness.  I thought it was a short 2-day phase.  Apparently, it is now officially a 4-day phase.  I was completely all over the map this morning.  My mind was completely racing, as it tended to do when I was working.  I seemed to have lost the easy going tempo of the day.  I was thinking about all of the things I wanted to do that I have not yet done, and I have already let two months pass and I am going to be a failure if I do not do everything I want to do.

I had SCUBA diving on my list.  I remembered that I want to play the piano.  And I really want to get a bike.  If I don't step it up, summer will be over.  I always wanted to learn how to play golf.  Travel!  I planned to go to Southeast Asia for 2 months!  Now with the dogs, I think my travel will be shorter, closer to home trips.  There are other things on the list of things I want to do.  The list keeps getting bigger, too, as I think of things.

THEN I thought, I will not be able to be GOOD at anything because there are so many things I want to do.  I cannot possibly do them all well if I am doing a thousand things.  Time is running out.  I cannot get perspective.  Who has taken Danielle and run away with her brain??

Change is difficult, as I wrote about a few posts back.  My brain functioned a certain way when I was working and it won't automatically switch to another mode overnight.  What is important is to not let it run away.  To remember my feet are here now.  They are grounded.  They don't need to be 16 projects down the road.  They don't need to be 16 projects behind.  They are right here.  I am right here.  With everything I could possibly need or want.

It is a gorgeous day in NY and I am so lucky to have this day.  I can stop the 4-day phase simply by changing my perspective.  Enjoy the day.  Tomorrow is a gift.  Stop and slow down.